I was a girl
You was the man
I was too young
To understand
I was naive
I just believed
Everything that you told me
Said you were strong
Protecting me
Then I found out
That you were weak
Keeping me there
Under your thumb
Cause you were scared
That I'd become much
More than you could handle
Shining like a chandelier
That decorated every room
Inside the private hell we built
And I dealt with it
And I dealt with it
Like a kid I wished
I could fly away
But instead
Kept my tears inside
Cause I knew if I
Started I'd keep cryin' for the rest of my
Life with you I finally built up the strength
To walk away don't regret it
But I still live with the side effects
Wakin' up scared some nights
Still dreaming 'bout the violent times
Still a little protective about the people that I let inside
Still a little defensive thinking
Folks be tryin' to run my life
Still a little depressed inside I fake a smile
And deal with the side effects
Side effects
Side effects
Side effects
Vacant inside, no one was there
Couldn't be real, had to keep quiet
Once in a while put up a fight it's just too much
Night after night
After a while I would just lie
You were dead wrong said you were right
Did what I could just to survive
Couldn't belive this was my life
Flickering like a candle
Doing my best to handle
Sleeping with the enemy aware that he was smothering
Every last part of me
So I broke away and finally found the strength to breathe
